09 April 2008


The last month has been a month of roller coaster emotions. Of faith being tested. Is God really good? Does He really know what I'm facing? How can I bear a life that is overwhelming?

When I think of faith I realize I can immediately rattle off at least a solid half dozen Scriptures that have to do with the subject. "Faith comes by hearing. . ." "Without faith it is impossible to please God. . . " Those many times Jesus said to his good friends, "Oh ye of little faith!" "If you have faith as a mustard seed. . ." "Your faith has healed you. . ." And Jesus' words, "And when I come, will I find faith on the earth?"

There have been circumstances in my past in which my faith was "broken". And it wasn't God's fault. As I wrestled with thoughts, emotions, and issues again last night, God's Spirit broke into my world through the prayer of my husband as he knelt beside me. I know it was God's Spirit because it totally revolutionized my heart. Daniel prayed that God would "heal my faith". Now to some of you that may seem totally weird. How can faith be healed? To be honest, I don't even know myself, I only know that it witnessed to my spirit. I realized that if my faith was "healed" then all of my "issues" would become insignificant because my faith would be in God alone. When my faith is "healed" I'm able to trust God in completeness. 

Maybe not rocket science, but a beautiful release in my spirit as I have come to understand that God is healing my faith. No, life is not pristine. But there is peace in my spirit as I realize once again that God will take us through whatever is necessary to bring us to those places where we learn to trust Him completely. 

Thank you, my gentle readers for the lovely birthday wishes you left for me! You made me feel so loved. And to my friends (near and far) who gave lovely gifts and sent kind words and tea bags tucked into envelopes: God used you to show me His love. Thank you. 

May your day be blessed by the presence of the Spirit of the Living God. And may your faith increase. And if you, as I, have a broken faith, I pray the Lord Jesus will "heal" your faith even as He is healing mine, that we might learn to trust in the goodness of our God in spite of the surrounding circumstances that challenge us to disbelieve our Creator. 


Tara said...

This post, along with its terminology, makes perfect sense to me. I have EXPERIENCED a healing of my faith in the past. And even in recent days I have traveled down the path leading me to that healing again. It surely is a process.
I hope you know what a huge blessing and encouragement that your honest sharing can bring to your readers. Surely those who haven't been on this path can still appreciate it, but for those of us who know EXACTLY what you mean....it's good to know we're not alone.

Thanks for sharing.

Jenni said...

amen and amen. thanks for sharing your heart! i think i will be praying for a "healing of faith" in my own heart!

Anonymous said...

I have never commented before, I am not sure how this works (with the computer). I thank you also for sharing your heart. I can connect to your healing faith. God did this for me shortly after college and I knew His timing even before I really knew what was going to happen. A real turning point in my life that I will never forget. Now I have taken up the sword in the battle recently and He is revealing his love in such great detail, humor and enormity.
Jessica Roberts

David and Sarah Fry said...

Doesn't sound a bit weird to me. In fact, I think that it is precisely in the faith-healing that God shows us His heart. And the new faith is glued together with HIMSELF....so it is a stronger, deeper part of who we are.

It's not enough to make me want a new faith-healing. Those places hurt way too deeply to ever wish them on oneself. But it reminds me that beauty will come soothes my fear.

It was such a treat to see your beautiful smiling face for about 30seconds.

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